I love Pooh.

I'm not being random.

Because Pooh always says, "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."

Since I love Pooh so much, I'm trying to put this into good use.

The memories always make me smile of course.

But I can't seem to get as high as I was in the past, having mood swings all the time.

I'll laugh for around 10 minutes and feel as if I'm drained of energy and get moody again.

BUCK UP!

If he's meant to be Mr. Right, he'll be. =)



Anyway, I'm going back to ballet!

[Because I stopped for 'O' Levels, going back for Advanced now?]

P/s: Suck it up bitch, so what if you have a higher grade than me. Just go kiss your own ass. Whether you dance well or not, it is for people to see and yourself to know, you don't have to show it off to the whole world. What's more, I have NEVER spoken to you before, so just what is your fucking problem by having to go around tell everyone that you're better? You want people to know that you dance better? Fine take it. As if talking about it you'll get better. Oh crap you just suck. BITCH

Back.

I have already come so far, so I should finish the whole thing right?

I'm not sure if I'm going to use my ballet certs though.

I can erm.. Be a ballet teacher in future? I'd love that and so would my parents, but I also want to go into R&D!

That's why I'm going Biotechnology right?

As I have said for many times, I wanna do research on diseases!

Sounds fun man.

I'll find the cure to cancer! AMEN!xD

So..

I was thinking I could teach part-time Ballet and study at the same time.

Sounds great?! YES!

Alright I'll see about it.

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God people... Stop asking about it. Yes me and Deon broke up. Or rather, I prefer to say it as stay as friends for the time being.

It came as a shock to me, and I really couldn't take it at first.

I cried like buckets, almost as if water was free.

I fully understand why some authors use the term "tears flow freely". I couldn't even control my tears, I am not even really conscious when the tears flow. Its just I suddenly feel moisture on my cheeks and I realise there are tears again.

I kept crying the whole time I was on the bus back home, and I realised in movies when the person keeps crying and everyone is staring, it's not that the person doesn't know, it's just that I don't give a damn. Stare all you want, shit you.

Well, because I kept crying, outflow and no inflow, I had swollen glands in my throat. So bad that I couldn't talk and developed a fever.

Whatever it is, I keep willing myself not to cry but somehow it just flows.

I was really upset because I have never ever been so lost, upset, broken before in all my life. I really mean my whole life, never so upset before.

Slept for 2 days straight, I didn't want to leave my bed at all cause there didn't seem like there was any purpose. Just lay there crying and hoping that some miracle would happen.

Finally on the second night, my parents decided to drag my to dinner at Changi Village cause they thought I needed to get out of the house and get some well, fresh air?

I bet I looked like a walking zombie.

Totally lifeless, just trudged up the stairs without really looking where I was going.

Didn't feel like eating not because I don't want to eat, I have seriously no appetite. No hunger pangs at all.

Went home and slept again.

After sleeping for so many days, and not replying sms-es or picking up calls, I realised it was quite pointless, life goes on, and it's not as if it's totally over.

Our problem has been building up and due to many I should say, external problems, I respect his decision for being friends for the time being.

We shall see as time goes, and maybe, someday, we might be together again.

Not like I'd ever like any other guy. Well, that's in the future, I don't know what will happen.

Everything is pretty much the same, we still sms each other, and arrange outings, it's just a relationship status change I suppose.

I really pray and hope that all these problems will fade away and we'll be together in the future again.

I don't know what will happen.

We'll see how it goes.

But I still believe that when Daddy God says "All things shall work out for good", it shall.

Alright now you guys know already, please stop asking me.

Don't tell me "don't be upset", "don't cry" or "are you alright?", because I'll only be more upset.

Maybe the best you can do is pray for me. =)







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ONE CHILD SYNDROME

Denise came up with this "syndrome" because I recently started bringing my mini pooh bear/handphone pouch that Dat gave me to work, and I started talking to the bear.=P

Is it very weird???

I mean, most girls talk to their soft toy right?

Its kind of fun since they won't respond and they stare at you in their cute and innocents faces!

It just makes you go "Awww...".

Hahas.xD

I also pat the pooh's head every now and then to indicate its being a obedient little pooh by sitting there or something. [Not that it can move or anything. =/ ]

Denise started relating it to some One-child-syndrome because she says Nikki does that too.

Talking to her Macdonald toys and patting them on the head.

But I just like to do that!

Ask them questions and answer is myself by shaking or nodding the pooh's head.Lols.

Aiya, only child got no one to talk to right.

Beats talking to a mirror when you respond to yourself, it's rather scary right?xD

So my point is, talking to bears are fun and it's not weird at all.

Denise totally bursts into a hysterical laughter when she sees me pat pooh's head.

She claims I'm weird when she actually names all her stationery?!

Her correction tape is Sam, her eraser is Alex? Her pens are like Emmet, Alice and so on. (Twilight characters). And she scolds them when the ink doesn't come out or something.

So who's weird?

Lols.xD








I have been running for the past few days!

I decided to start running last week but somehow procrastinated until Sunday, where Denise and I went to Seashell park to run.

Erm, 2km for 25 minutes...

Yeah laugh laugh all you want.Hmph.We'll improve!

I told Dad I'll be running on Monday and Tuesday too but then, I just couldn't drag myself out of my comfy bed and Denise din't wake up too. Oh well.

Dad: (in the morning) So? How many rounds have you been running in your dreams already?
Me: =.=

Finally went to run today morning!

I had thought Denise wasn't coming since she didn't message me at 730am.

So I happily went back to sleep and promised myself I'd wake up to run tomorrow.

Who knew!

She messaged me at 8plus saying she was coming soon.

Obviously I had to drag myself out of bed and go running.

We improved!

2-2.4km for 15 minutes!

Hahas we planned to join some marathon in 6 months time.LOL!

Alright I'll go call Dar, he's back from camp FINALLY!

*skips towards own room*





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Yes it's Valentines update!xD

Well because it's also my 2 year anniversary as I have mentioned for the upteenth time, I went to get my nails done for the occasion!

[Actually I do my nails for EVERY possible occasion I can think about.xD ]

10 Feb 09

Since the manicurist we frequent is currently doing home-based and we don't know how to get there, we decided to just do it at some random shop in Bugis Street.

Afterward I realised it's not as good because the nail polish chipped of in less than a week.Normally it can last about 2 weeks for me before it starts a chip off bit by bit.=(


At the nail palour.


Denise and I doing our nails with Fairie accompanying us.

He's almost as good as a girlfriend! He's not gay though.xD


Pretty nails!


My nails.=)


Denise's nails.=)

Ling was there to do peidicure too.But she sat very far away so we couldn't exactly communicate. =/

Nails done!

Walked over from Bugis to Suntec City (which is quite near) and went to hunt for Dar's present!

Now that Valentine's over and I already gave Dar the present, I can say it out!

I got Dar a really nice perfume by Giorgio Armani (don't know how to spell, it's correct i think.xD) and a little cute monkey!

Mum: But isn't he born in the year of the goat?
Me: Oh ya...
Mum: Nevermind lor, say you give yourself to him.Haha!
Me: =.=

Kelvin came along to help me "test" the perfumes.

Basically we walked into this perfume shop, got the lady to let us smell all sorts of perfurm until my nose hurt.Lols.

Hahas the lady would spray a different perfume on a "perfume slip" and lets us smell it.

I totally enjoy stuffing the slip into Fairie's nose and wash him splutter and cough at the perfume.Because he's just so fun to tease.HAHAHA!

I'm such a saddist. =/

Sorry Fairie!=D







Did I mention Fairie was totally awesome that day?!

He brought cheesecakes, muffins, cookies and some sort of chicken which was unbelievably wonderful to eat!

I totally gorged myself with that chicken man!xD

Cleo: Oh God, chickens exist in heaven you know.
Everyone: =.=

Finished a big cookie too.Hehe.xD

Denise and I left at 630pm while the 3 of them went of to er, shop more?=D






14 Feb 09 VALENTINES DAY

Met Dar at Bugis MRT and he was late! as usual..

Met him finally around 3pm.=)

Went to Bugis cause Dar needed to buy socks.

Ended up buying socks of the rainbow colors at some pushcart in Bugis Junction and we walked over to Suntec.

Gosh, like a repetition or something.Hahas.

Anyway went to TopMan and there was a sale!

Shirts for $29!! CAN YOU BELIVE IT?

Dar tried one but they didn't have his size.Oh well..We can look next time.=)

At 630 we went to queue to get into Swensons.

Damn!

Should have made a reservatio nor something.The queue was..Erm like queuing on Sundays to get into church.Haha!

Got in finally and started ordering!

I was starving by then , hadn't had lunch or anything.=(









Ordered Clam Chowder, Fish and Chips, Chicken baked rice and an ice-cream!=)

I totally forgot to take a photo before eating.Zzzz.


Half gone fish and chips.


1/4 left Clam chowder.


Chicken baked rice with a spoonful gone.xD



I can't believe it's our two year anniversary!

It didn't feel like we were together for so long already.

It still feels like we're in our pa-tuo ing mode.Hahas.

And i'm really happy our relationship turned out right.=)

Weee, I really feel lovey dovey like right now!

I LOVE DARDAR! hahas.








The tiny pooh Dar gave me to put my phone!

Cause he knows my phone is always so full of scratches and I hate putting covers and everything.

Kind of spoils the phone. Personal opinion.=)

Yeah feel the love?

I'm totally gushing! hyperventilating! swooning! AHHHHH!






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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO EVERYONE!

PLUS!

IT'S MY TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY WITH DARDAR TODAYYYYY!

Weeee the whole world is celebrating with me!! (technically la)

I'm going out to celebrate!!

Will update soon.xD


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Valentines Day is coming!

Weee it'll mark the 2 year anniversary of me and Dar!

Sounds so long already right?!

Oh My God I'm so excited!

Two years you know!

When we got together everyone asked me how long I thought this relationship would last.

Every couple would be like " Oh maybe half a year?" or "Well I'm not sure, 6 months?"

But I knew my reply was, "I think we'll last forever!" or "I don't think we'll ever break up".

HAHA!

Sounds like so Zzzz to other people at that time but we lasted two years what!

One of the longest relationship in our school lei! HMPH! (to the nay sayers)

Haha.xD

Well anyway I went to get Dar's presents on Tuesday already!

Very happy with them.=D

The EMW clique accompanied me to get the presents!

And I chose it finally.

I think Dar would love it!

Won't reveal what it is here in case Dar sees it!

The it won't be a surprise! Hahas.=)

2 more days to Valentines!

WEEEEEEEEE~!

Also, tomorrow will be the first time we're having Care Group meeting with our new CG.

Well I'm in Arrow's SP B Caregroup!

Leader: What do you think we should call ourselves? Any ideas for our names?

*Cleo had an ingenous idea*

Cleo: We're from Singapore Poly so we should be called Singaporeans!! *beams to herself*

Everyone: =.="


OOPS?xD



Well I'm always so full of this kind of stuff right?
xD





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Level 4 Clique Prata outing!

Hahas met the EastmeetsWest clique (except Jack who couldn't come) and had dinner at Amoy Street!

Yeah prata fever! xD


Fairie was sitting across me so I supposed he gets all the unglam photos of him taken?xD


Ji ko bei!! [pervert. =P ]


Ji ko bei attack!xD

Afterward we went to watch Lion Dance!

Since it was the last day of Chinese New Year there was some performance.=)




We screamed when this thingy walked towards us!

Afterward when i described to Daddy about it, he said that the long beard was it's tongue!!

Oh My GOD! Freaked out totally!


As you can see.xD





Slacked at a cafe afterwards to hmmm.. Chat? =)








hahahahaha! lols.


I am too lazy to uoload all the photos so just make do with this few okay? =D

I might feel un-lazy enough to upload the rest to Facebook.Hahas! =)

Just as i am i come before you.
With no pretense i draw near.
You made a way through the cross my redemption's secure
My savior

If not for your grace how can i stand
To worship you with my heart and strength

Yours is the name, above all names.

Every knee shall bow, every tongue proclaim.

Yours is the name, I live to praise.

Jesus.

Worthy is your name.

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Arrow service!=)

Met Denise, Jack and Fairie early to go shopping!

As usual, we went to Cotton On!

That's almost like our favourite shop.Weee.=D


Looks like we're overseas right? Like Australia or something!=D

Level 4 clique shall go to Australia together some day!=D

I feel like calling us East meets West! Sounds cool right!xD

Hahas.=D








Magician Jack!




Japanese girl!


Japanese girl!


Golfer!


Popeye!

Amazing how a hat can do so many different looks huh!xD


Went into The Rock with the SP group to wait for doors to open to the Auditorium! As usual.

CAMWHORE




















HOODIES FTW!


That's Jack's finger by the way.


Look at Denise's face.=P





Town after service! =D

Really loving EastmeetsWest clique more and more! Lols totally self absorbed with the name I've given the group.xD

















Went home at 10 plus and saw Shu Ming, Jonathan and SweeMin at White Sands.=)

Took unglam photos of them again!xD




My loves! + Kelvin and Clinton and Dardar of course! =)






This is like FREAKING FUNNY

That's our people.

Fun?
xD




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